back to random picture posting, no more emotional splurging i promise
i just feel so sad for no reason and i want it to stop. My dream really freaked me out and then i woke up and felt like my head was exploding so went back to sleep, woke up at 1 and its been a waste of a day and my rooms a tip and i have to go out tomorrow night but its awkward as its technically for an ex’s return to leicester but my friend wants to do it and i promised her a night out in leicester and tomorrows the only day i can do due to work and other commitments and work never seems to get any less and i need to get this book sent off and i WILL do, ill make myself. Then i will treat myself with wine and oh my god i just want uni to be over so i can breathe and focus on other things like my social life and relationships and maybe even attempt to get in shape. rant over, goodbye.
how i felt tonight at soar point, too many young people and guys with buns on their heads. Who knew that was a fashion?! :/
i dont know what to do and i cant ask for help and i feel so lost i could cry
i still cant shake the feeling youre better off without me
So today i had my first day at the primary school im volunteering at, I’ve never worked with children that young before (4 year olds) and i dont think ive ever been so thankful for a sit down and a coffee. Just understanding how to deal with children is one thing, plus learning 60+ names, plus having to try and sort the section im meant to be doing whilst being hugged, sorting out the section i was helping, all the arguements about whose pen is whose and who stole the plastic loaf of bread. But it was so fulfilling and after helping with GCSE mardy kids it was lovely to have kids that seemed to just ooze lovliness. Honestly can’t wait to go back.
deadlines and starting at two new schools and then hopefully my mind can take a break and maybe just away from things for a few days. I really need a holiday but it doesnt look like ones going to happen this year and i just feel so exhausted in every way possible. Is it sad to go on holiday on your own? i feel it is…
Sejjj :( just relationship things no need to worry your pretty head <3 lets just get drunk